Tau ga knapa dulu gw selalu nolak dia??
Dia bikin gw sesak nafas.
Why?
Well maybe because his deep feeling scared me
The First
I just don’t think about having a boyfriend…..gileeee...gw baru pindah gitu loh, baru ketemu temen2 baru (yang sama skali beda!!), masi disoriented….I’m still trying to fit in…trus ni cowo datang dan nembak gw…gw sama skali ga tau siapa dia….sekarang udah terlalu banyak yang harus gw pikirin….and having a boyfriend definitely not one of them!!!
The Second
Dia datang lagi. He said that he still have the same feeling like before…so why don’t I give a try for us…perlahan gw mulai kenal siapa dia, gw tau dia itu baik baik baik (sejuta baik!!) banget, sayaaaang banget ma gw….tapi lama2 gw kok merasa terperangkap (bego nya gw!!)…mungkin karna perasaan gw ke dia ternyata ga sedalam perasaan dia ke gw…lama2 dia bikin gw sesak nafas and that make me scared. So the second I found a door out, without even think I opened it and run...
Medio Sept 2001
I never thought I will saw him again after that…tapi ternyata there he was…dia datang lagi beberapa tahun kemudian…I a rush, without give me a chance to think, a second to analyze the situation, he said the same word like before…masi shock gw cuman bisa mikir, “damn!! after all those years, after what I have done to him, after what happen to us, he still never get rid of me? What happen with him??”
And that thought scared me even more….
NOW
We meet again, lot of things have been changed…a lot of memory have been made…a lot of sadness has disappear wash away by happiness…pikiran pertama yang terlintas dibenak gw waktu pertama mendengar kabar tentang dia setahun yang lalu adalah “Finally he can get over me!!” I’M GLAD!!
Dia bikin gw sesak nafas.
Why?
Well maybe because his deep feeling scared me
The First
I just don’t think about having a boyfriend…..gileeee...gw baru pindah gitu loh, baru ketemu temen2 baru (yang sama skali beda!!), masi disoriented….I’m still trying to fit in…trus ni cowo datang dan nembak gw…gw sama skali ga tau siapa dia….sekarang udah terlalu banyak yang harus gw pikirin….and having a boyfriend definitely not one of them!!!
The Second
Dia datang lagi. He said that he still have the same feeling like before…so why don’t I give a try for us…perlahan gw mulai kenal siapa dia, gw tau dia itu baik baik baik (sejuta baik!!) banget, sayaaaang banget ma gw….tapi lama2 gw kok merasa terperangkap (bego nya gw!!)…mungkin karna perasaan gw ke dia ternyata ga sedalam perasaan dia ke gw…lama2 dia bikin gw sesak nafas and that make me scared. So the second I found a door out, without even think I opened it and run...
Medio Sept 2001
I never thought I will saw him again after that…tapi ternyata there he was…dia datang lagi beberapa tahun kemudian…I a rush, without give me a chance to think, a second to analyze the situation, he said the same word like before…masi shock gw cuman bisa mikir, “damn!! after all those years, after what I have done to him, after what happen to us, he still never get rid of me? What happen with him??”
And that thought scared me even more….
NOW
We meet again, lot of things have been changed…a lot of memory have been made…a lot of sadness has disappear wash away by happiness…pikiran pertama yang terlintas dibenak gw waktu pertama mendengar kabar tentang dia setahun yang lalu adalah “Finally he can get over me!!” I’M GLAD!!
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